Notes on the end – Book 6
I think this will be about the sixth book.
There will be a war, set off by Mercutio’s death. The worlds were holding on until Mercutio was murdered, by Julian…and Steffana lost her baby, or had her baby cut out of her.
So after that, Steffana because a total basket case until she is rescued by Joaquin. Side not on Joaquin, Joaquin and Steffana, had a one night affair, while Steffana was married to Kieron. Shortly after that, Steffana turned up pregnant, therefore ,it is not known whether Steffana’s baby belonged to Kieron or Joaquin.
The Threesome- Stef, Kieron and Joaquin
Of course when Kieron learned of this, he hit the roof, it was especially painful since he learned about the affair just after he and Steffana had made real progress on healing from the painful death of their children, twenty years earlier. He thought that finally they were going to be able to have the relationship they were always meant to have, built on love and trust, but NOPE. He was devastated to find out about the affair and the fact that Steffana’s child might not be his.
So he responded by calling Joaquin on his bullshit, he’s al like you’re supposed to be my friend and you’re supposed to be neutral, how could you get involved with my wife! And Joaquin’s all like you never appreciated your wife, you treated her like crap, I always had to pick up the pieces after you screwed her head all up, you didn’t deserve her, she was mine, I put in the work, I fixed her.
So then Kieron’s like- you are going to stay away from her, you’re going to tell her, not write her a message explaining that you fucked up, and you were never supposed to get involved with her, it was against your rules, it was unethical as a healer, you and only knew how much I loved her, how much I struggled with losing her…did you take every thing that I told you about her and use it to seduce her…you knew what she liked , you knew what she didn’t like and unethical as a Zealand. You were supposed to help us, instead you only fucked things u for the worst. I trusted you, I thought you were my friend…a lesser man I would kill, but you I respect your talents but you have got to stay away from my wife. Leave, leave this island, and leave her, don’t think of he, don’t speak to her, blah, blah, blah, you’re wrong. They had a friendship, Kieron thought, Kieron thought Joaquin was one of his very few friends, someone who he could trust…banking on him to help transition Steffana back to him when he proposed to her, after the explosion that killed Leevian and really began the war.
He was banking on Joaquin to help him win her back, could not understand why he would not help him, Joaquin said things like “this situation with Steffana is far more complicated, than you realize.”
Kieron said, things like, “Well help me to make it simple. Tell me what to do to get through to her, I really need to make this work.”
“I’m not her healer anymore”
“well, why not?”
“We don’t have that kind of relationship anymore.”
Kieron noticed anger, first then he noticed lust from Joaquin, began to put it together, but before he fully put it together, Joaquin demanded that Stef tell him about the two of them.
When Kieron finally found out, he was furious, felt betrayed by both of them. Responded by pushing Joaquin off the island, and putting Stef under lock and key.
Joaquin to the Rescue – Five Years Gone
When the murders happen, Stef is devastated, Joaquin comes back to rescue her, Stef and Joaquin disappear for five years, during that time, the war explodes. Stef and Joaquin build a system of underground clinics where people can get healed, stay safe, hide. They are 9even though he doesn’t know it, allies of Kieron)
Steffana becomes somewhat of a legend, due to the fact that she atomic bombs this real world city, where she thought Julian was. Kills about three hundred thousand people. She wanted revenge, didn’t quite get it, but the failure to kill Julian eats at her, and the guilt of killing all those people east at her, slowly she is dying.
It gets pretty bad, finally Joaquin makes the decision to take her darkness, believes that he an transform it, but once he takes it, he finds out that he can’t, and it kills him instead of her. She is healthy once again, but now carries the burden of Joaquin’s death.
Stef Returns to Kieron Finally- Joaquin is Dead
When she returns to Kieron, he has changed to, five years of ruling the world (his half of it anyway) and being at war, has turned him much darker, at first when Steffana comes back he is very abusive, but finally comes around to accepting her, because Steffana is cleansed, peaceful, makes him more peaceful.
More on the development of Kieron and Stef during this period whens he returns.
Kieron is of course dark and angry, he’s been fighting a war for seven years, lost everything that matters to him…when Steffana comes back he is leery of her, wonders of she is really the dark wonder that she has been described as, also wonders if he can trust her. He thinks he can but he doesn’t know absolutely demands to know what happened
- First asks her- she declines t tell him
- Tried to get her to blow up a city – refuses, says she can’t
- Second pulls a gun on her- tells her he will blow her brains out if she doesn’t blow up the city and tell him, that’s when she ‘s all like “You don’t trust me, oh, I didn’t come here to hurt you Kieron, I came to help you…but you don’t believe me. I understand. Just do it.”
So she waits for him to kill her, a and she’s okay with it, and she looks like she’s preparing for it, and he realizes that she is preparing for it, (She’s really preparing to take the darkness from him, knowing that once she starts to do that she would die anyway, so she’s not particular afraid of dying)
He doesn’t know what’s going on with her really, he just knows that she’s prepared to die, and that she’s okay with it, has a certain peace about it. He reads that as warrior ship is that a word – only something you see in the very best, most powerful, most clever warriors. He becomes even more determined to figure out what’s up with her.
So he drugs her chocolate weed! (and that’s when they get their freak on!)
He says things like, “All this time he’d been thinking of her only as an enemy or an ally, a weapon to be used by him or against him…so focused on that that he forgot that she was a woman, and still quite a beautiful one at that. Especially when she laughed, he couldn’t remember the last time he’d seen Steffana laugh, or even smile…
But now she was laughing hysterically, it was so sexy, he couldn’t even remember that last time he’d had a woman.
“What’s so funny?”
I know what you’re trying to do Kieron…you’re trying to get in the box…but I’m telling you don’t open the box!” And then she began laughing, hysterically…he was rushing through her mind, trying to get to the box…breezing primarily past memoirs of her and Joaquin, ding totally innocuous things, healing people, running healing clinics, teaching others how to run healing clinics then
BAM. It was had, and smooth, all charcoal black, with absolutely no seams. She had locked this up deep in her mind….it was like even she couldn’t get to it….
Kieron, please leave it alone…do not open that box! It’s a Pandora.
Pandora’s box…it was a myth about someone opening something in a box, and the results of it were catastrophic…it only made it more enticing…he wanted to open it immediately so he asked,
What’s in the box Steffana, Why don’t you want me to open it?
Because if you do, it will be devastating to you, and even worse for me.
Why, what will happen to us, if I open it.
Well, I can’t be sure about you, but I will die, that I know for sure.
She would die…he hadn’t considered that she was harboring something that was a danger to her. But Then again, this was Steffana we were talking about…Steffana was always harboring something that was dangerous to herself, the story of her life.
Reluctantly he backed off, she was telling the truth. The nature of this scape was that it often made lying and shielding very difficult, time and reality was experienced differently. You never could tell exactly how it would affect people, it changed from person t person. A very powerful discovery by Neptune and Sasha…the sisters were quite extraordinary when you got to know them. With Steffana he found that it made her happy, silly, giddy really. He was able to float through memories at ease, at least the ones that she had no issue with, she readily shared with him.
“Do you remember this?”
“of course I do”
He reviewed the memory, as if it where a film, but it was different, he was able to savor it, as she did, she had liked it, she had liked it a lot.
“You think about the first time I made love to you.”
“all the time.”
“Why?”
She just smile brightly, “Because in that moment, in that single solitary moment, I felt like you loved me just as mush as I loved you and I don’t know if I ever felt that from you ever again, but when I remember the feeling, and it felt so good. It really, really felt good. Am I making any sense?”
She was high, but in her won way she was.
“I always loved you Steffana”
She just laughed, “Maybe…maybe you did, but it don’t always feel that way. And we never could get along…it just never worked no matter how hard I tried, or your tried …ad really” and with that she burst out laughing, it’s…it’s…it’s so frieking sad, really.”
She was laughing so hard, he thought she might even seize…it was the only other time he’s seen her lose control of her self so completely, whens he was seizing, but no she wasn’t having a seizure, she was just laughing.
God he wanted her, he wanted her so badly and he had forgotten what it felt like to what anyone, he hadn’t thought about it in so long, but now he was. He was thinking about it and it was just overpowering, he had to have her, but he was so conflicted. That wasn’t what he had meant for this to be. He wanted, no he desperately needed to find out the truth, but all he had learned was that he couldn’t get at the truth without hurting her, she seemed to be no threat to him. He had to leave it alone- mission aborted, but why should it be a total waste? She was here, and she was probably willing, but she had been drugged…was it wrong?
I can love you like that again Steffana.
No you can’t.
Do you want me to try?
No…you’d just ruin a perfectly good memory, and I don’t want you to do that.
I won’t, I promise. It will be just as good as the first time Stef. Lemme try…lemme try to erase the memory of myself.
You wanna…you mean, you wanna…erase….you can’t erase…Kieron that is soooooooooo funny! Oh Gaw! That is sooooooooo funny! But No! I like that memory.
He cuddled up to her, he was certain her could get her to say yes, and if he did, if he gained her permission, he was going to go for it. They were technically man and wife, anyway, he was fully within his rights.
He kissed her o the forehead, and then on the lips,
Let’s make better memories Steffana. Then he began tugging at her clothes. She smiled… she wanted him, he could feel her body responding to him the same way it always did. The sexual chemistry between the two of them had always been, explosive…neither one of them could help it. It was so hard for either one of them to tell the other no, and he knew he was seconds away from getting what he so desperately needed form her.
“Oh, what the hael!” She laughed, and kissed him back, passionately. It was from that moment on, like it had always been, except, better. Yeah it was better, because for the fist time ever, there was no resistance from Steffana…she was just open and accepting, completely.
Finally, against his better judgment, he allows Vriker to Visit. Steffana has to tell Vriker about the reason behind Joaquin’s death, it is something that she typically refuses to talk about. So when she tells Vriker, Vriker says something to Kieron, to the effect of,
“My brother gave up his life for her, and she gave up her life for you, so you better make it count. Win this war.”
So Kieron starts bugging Stef to tell him what he meant by that, he wants to know what happened to Joaquin, and why does Vriker say that she gave up her life for him – Because at this point, he knows she’s dying, she told him, but he doesn’t know why.
The Real True Story of Steffana’s Time as a Warrior
So she left with Joaquin, they started these underground clinics, she begins to heal, but then they get lured into one of Julius, real world cities, a real stronghold for all of the evil doing that he’s done, it’s an epicenter, a hub, if you will for his planned attacks on all of the real world and virtual world and free world territories governed by Kieron.
So once she is in Julius’s epicenter, she is out for blood, she knows that he killed her father and her baby, she also knows that he wants to kill her…so she goes to the city, burns it to the ground, ashes to ashes dust to dust 3 million people total. Problem is she is wracked with guilt over it, haunted by what Joaquin calls “the darkness” an inability to rid herself of the guilt for killing so many innocent people and an inability to rid herself of this strong desire to want to kill Julius, it consumes her.
Meanwhile, she has a reputation, in all of the worlds, Steffana the dark, Steffana the cursed, Steffana the three World Terror, Steffana the child killer, Julius sets out all this propaganda against her and Kieron. They are murderers and Terrorist, he pulls up the old footage of the VWISH that exploded.
Kieron fires back with all of Julius’s sexual deviances, the worlds are torn- not quite knowing which one to trust, Kieron is from the real world, he really did kill all of the real Worlders all those years ago. Steffana did wipe out a city of three million people, Julius is a sicko, bizarre sexual deviant psychopath.
You need to figure out the time line for actions, he also insisted that she blow up a town, she refuses, that’s when he gets angry. Questions her point blank about whether or not she can blow up a town, she says no. he believes her, but is frustrated because he believes that’s he had the ability to help him and is not helping as much as he would like. She tells him that she will help him, by just standing in the room with him. So she does that he does realize that she makes it much easier to do his job, he asks her what is she doing, she explains that she is a conductor, can make things easier for people, pulls out their strengths in them and expands them.
He asks why hasn’t it very been like this before, she explains that there was too much resistance between them for a smooth connection.
“So what’s changed? Why don’t you resist me now?”
“I have no reason to.”
“And you had reasons before?”
“Yeah, several.”
“Well what were they Steffana, I’d like to know.”
“I don’t really want to get into any of that Kieron, it’s all water under the bridge at this point.”
“How can I trust this? What changed? Your whole life, you’ve fight against me, now you don’t? Why not?”
“I see things differently now.”
“Yeah…care to elaborate.”
“I think that maybe…I have a better understanding of who you are, why you do the things you do, I guess what is most important is that I know it comes from a good place.”
So for a while she helps him in his war room, command central…but then when she gets pregnant she stops, he doesn’t know why and neither does she.
So then after the first time they make love, they do it all the time, things become much easier for the both of them. They don’t talk about the past or the future, those are the rules, they can only live in the now, and they do happily, for a bit. But then, she starts having trouble, runs out of the room throwing up.
“I don’t wanna do this anymore Kieron.”
“But why not?”
“I…I just don’t know…it just doesn’t feel right anymore… it makes me sick I don’t feel like I can…not without…
“You don’t feel like you are going to seize do you?”
Because GAW knew he did not want to deal with that ish.
“No…it’s not I don’t know, I just know that I can’t…not anymore.”
Okay.
He didn’t want to make her sick, or have any of the problems she’s had in the pasts o he had to let it go, and she’s told him as much, that she couldn’t make any promises about the future, so, he just had to accept it.
So shortly after this he learns of her pregnancy, he is blown away, she is blown away.
Up until this point she has been a prisoner in this house, he doesn’t let her leave, because she is too dangerous. He doesn’t allow her to have too much outside contact with the world. He knows she is hiding something from him, but doesn’t know what, his response to all of that is containment. He wants to keep her contained. Then he finds out she is pregnant, he really wants to keep her contained
He wants to bring in a team of doctors, she doesn’t. They fight over that. She doesn’t trust free world medicine. She only believes in the healers trained in the Zealand way. She’s a healer, she can handle it. She threatens to leave. Finally they agree on midwives, from Zeala.
They are preparing for the baby, they are both very happy about it. Kieron asked her why does she always say “the baby will be okay, But never says she is going to be okay.” So that’s when she tells him that she is dying. He gets really upset, but it moves him to bring Gracen to see her. She is so delighted, Gracen says she is going to bring Sasha and Neptune, they will be together, just like old times. Kieron is not entirely comfortable with it.
When Gracen shows up she actually show up with Sasha, Neptune and Vriker…Kieron freaks out does not want Vriker in his house. Does not trust him. Stef explains that she has to tell him about what happen to Joaquin, he really loses his mind, sense she will not tell him what happened between her an Joaquin. He is so very angry about it.
So when Vriker finally comes in and meets with Stef, it is so intense and so admit, it is driving Kieron up the wall. He demands to know the truth, that’s when Stef finally tells him everything about how she burned down the city, how Joaquin tried to saver her, and how she in tern tried to save him.
Then he is mind blown, when he realizes that Stef is going to die because she tried to help him, and that he is going to have to raise his baby alone…
Side note- this the scapes Kieron is giving to her is basically referencing weed, Neptune and Sasha discovered it and honed it and refined it for recreational purposes Gave some to Kieron, he basically began using it, as a weapon, to get people to open up, to get inside of their minds.